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ON THE DAY YOU LEAVE

 

ON THE DAY YOU LEAVE I LL BE FINE I LL BE AT EASE

I LL BE STRONG I LL STAND TALL

NOT THINK OF YOU AT ALL

AND THE SECOND DAY WILL BE LIKE THE OTHERS BEFORE WE

MET AND KISSED AND STUMBLED INTO LOVE

THERE WILL BE SOME OTHER GIRLS

THERE LL BE A WHOLE A BRAVE NEW WORLD OF SEX AND DRUGS

AND EMPTINESS A LOT

THOUGH I MIGHT NOT SLEEP TOO MUCH

AND THOUGH THE EIDERDOWN S UNTOUCHED

THAT S BECAUSE I LL BE OUT I LL BE LIVING LOUD

 

I LL USE THEM UP ALL THOSE MEMORIES THAT SHIVER DOWN MY SPINE

I LL USE THEM UP ALL THOSE THINGS THAT I DREAM FROM TIME TO TIME

I LL USE THEM UP WHEN THEY LOOM ABOUT AND TELL ME ABOUT US

I LL USE THEM UP LIKE I WOULD BEFORE

LIKE I COULD BEFORE

 

AND I WON T WALK BY YOUR HOUSE EXCEPT BY CHANCE AND ONLY ONCE

OR TWICE A DAY EVERY DAY NOW

NO I WON T MISS YOU AT ALL AND NO I DON T EXPECT YOUR CALL

THOUGH THE LINE WILL BE FREE AND ALL MY CALLS QUITE SHORT

I WILL KNOW WHERE TO GO WHEN THE DAYS GROW LONG AND LOW

AND ALL YOUR WINDOWS LIT BY OTHER PEOPLE S LAUGHS

I WON T MISS YOU WHEN I WAKE NEVER THINK OF YOU LATE

AT NIGHT WHEN THE STARS ARE UP AND ALL IS QUIET

 

I LL DRAG IT DOWN WHAT S STILL LEFT OF US AND POUR IT IN MY GLASS

AND DRINK IT DOWN ALL TO ABSENT FRIENDS AND FACES THAT WON T PASS

IT MIGHT TAKE TIME BUT THERE S NO SUCH THING AS ENDLESSNESS

JUST SPITE

AND I LL GROW UP LIKE I WOULD BEFORE LIKE I COULD BEFORE

 

AND NO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO ASK WHAT S DEEP INSIDE

THAT S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS

WAS IT TOO MUCH LOVE TO HIDE? TOO MUCH FOUGHT DOWN AND DENIED?

AND THAT S ALL YOU LEFT ME WITH

SOMEONE COUGHING WHEN WE D KISS

 

SO IT S THE DAY AND YOU LEFT AND I M THE BEREAVED AND I M THE BEREFT

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR THAT I M DEVASTATED DEAR?

I M AFRAID I CAN T BE CALM WHILE YOUR PILLOW IS STILL WARM

AND YOU KNOW IT MIGHT ALWAYS BE

AND NO I DON T THINK IT S FOR THE BEST

CAN T STOP WONDERING WHAT WE LEFT IN THE ATTICS OF OUR THOUGHTS

BEHIND CLOSED WALLS

AND I M OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE COME AND PEOPLE GO

BUT I M NOT NAIVE ENOUGH TO STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE

 

SO TODAY YOU WENT AWAY AND I MISS YOU MORE THAN I COULD SAY

LIKE ANY ANGEL

 

AND SO YOU RE BACK FROM OUTER SPACE

A FORMER PART OF ME THAT I FORGOT

A LACK OF RESENTMENT THAT YOU FEEL NOW

THAT BRINGS YOU BACK TO ME A LAST RESORT

DISSOLVED IN APATHY AN ECHOED SMILE

A FORMER AMPUTEE A GRIP OF GUILE

AND ALL I KNOW AND ALL I CARE

A PAST TENSE NOUN A GAP DECLARED

AS I RETREAT FROM WHERE I STOOD LIKE ANY ANGEL

I CUT MY WINGS RIGHT WHERE I STOOD AND WALKED AWAY

THERE ARE NO HOPES TO BE WITHSTOOD NO STRINGS ENTANGLED

AND THERE S NO DREAM THAT HASN T DROOPED

I WALKED AWAY

SO PLEASE GO HOME AND LET IT BE LIKE ANY ANGEL

THERE S NOTHING LEFT FOR YOU TO SEEK SO WALK AWAY

A CHANGE OF HEART

 

A CHANGE OF HEART

A CHANGE OF EVERYTHING WE ARE

A LIFE BEHIND

AND SO WE STAND

FOUND A MEMORY IN A TANTRUM

A GHOST UNBANNED

SO TAKE MY HAND

REMEMBER WHAT YOU CAME FOR

AND TURN YOUR BACK INTO THE GALE

A STORM TO RAISE YOUR SAILS

A LIFE TO DIE

 

A CHANGE OF HEART

NOT THE NIGHTINGALE THE LARK

A SONG TO END OUR SONG

DON T ACT YOUR PART

THE PROPS UNDONE

THE LAST SCRIPT CHARRED

THE LAST TRAIN S OUT OF TOWN

SO TAKE MY HAND

REMEMBER WHAT WE STOOD FOR

AND WAVE GOODBYE

NO BACKSHIFTS NO TEARS

THERE S NOTHING LEFT TO PLEAD

NO DOOR AJAR

NO WOUNDS JUST SCARS

 

BUT I WILL ALWAYS SEE YOUR EYES IN EVERY TIRED STRANGER S FACE

IN EVERY COFFEE CUP I RAISE THERE LL BE A THOUGHT OF YOU ENGRAVED

IN EVERY DUSK AND EVERY DAWN THERE LL BE A MINUTE THAT YOU OWN

IN EVERY STARLIGHT S WHISPERED SONG YOU WILL BE GONE FOREVER

DON T CRY

A CHANGE OF HEART

 

LET IT FLY AND LET IT SLIDE

THE TRUTH UNBANNED BETWEEN THE LIGHTS

AND I WILL HIDE BENEATH THE RAIN

WHERE DREAMS REMAIN

THE SONG S THE SAME

 

I LL CLOSE MY MOUTH AND SHUT MY EYES

NO WHYS NO ALIBIS

 

SO TAKE MY HAND REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE

DETOXICATE YOUR EYES

THERE LL BE NO GALE NO STORM TO RAISE YOUR SAILS

JUST YOU AND I

 

BUT I WILL ALWAYS SEE YOUR EYES IN EVERY OTHER STRANGER S FACE

IN EVERY COFFEE CUP I RAISE THERE LL BE A THOUGHT OF YOU ENGRAVED

IN EVERY BOOK IN EVERY LINE IN EVERY SUNDOWN YOU LL BE MINE

FOR ALL THE HOPES FOR ALL THE DREAMS FOR ALL THE WORDS I FAKE

PLEASE STAY

 

IN EVERY DUSK AND EVERY DAWN THERE LL BE A MINUTE THAT YOU OWN

IN EVERY STARLIGHT S WHISPERED SONG YOU WILL BE GONE FOREVER

ALL WE ARE I AM NOT

 

I AM DREAMING OF YOUR SILENT FACES

I AM FLYING HIGH ABOVE YOUR SKY

HOLD OUR FEARS INSIDE MY STARK DERANGEMENT

I AM FLYING HIGH ABOVE YOUR SIGHS

 

I AM DRIVING HOME FROM YOUR AMENDMENTS

CRYING IN THE GAP BETWEEN TWO LIES

THRALLED IN TEAR TO GUARD MY CHOKED AMAZEMENT

I AM FLOATING HOME BETWEEN TWO WHYS

 

THEY SAY IT S ALL JUST A MATTER OF TIME

A FRAUD OF A FRAUD IN ILLUSIVE RHYMES OF LOVE

A LATE REQUEST FOR A POET S MIME

TO DREAM OF A DREAM THAT THE HERMITS CITE OF LOVE

 

HOLD ME CLOSER THAN YOU SHOULD

LIKE OUR DESIRES WERE LEFT FOR GOOD LIKE LOVE

REAPED OUR SEWINGS AND WENT OUR CAME

LIKE SNOWFLAKES DROWNED IN THE POURING RAIN LIKE LOVE

 

AWAY FROM IT ALL INSIDE THE NIGHT

WE LL SWAY AND WE LL FALL

INSIDE OUR SILENT FRIGHT OUR ENDLESS PLIGHT

PIVOTING LIKE A CAR CRASH AND DANCE ON SUMMER S ICE

ALL WE ARE I AM NOT

 

I M A YEARLONG PRISONER OF TWO FACES

SQUEEZED BETWEEN MY KEEPSAKES AND YOUR SMILE

EVERY DAY YOU D REIGN IN SWIFT EMBRACES

GLEAMED BENEATH A HEMLOCK LULLABY

 

WE D AGREE IT WAS ALL IN A LAPSE OF TIME

A FRAUD OF A FRAUD IN PERMISSIVE STYLES OF LOVE

A FAKE REQUEST FOR A HERMIT S SMILE

TO CLING TO A SONG THAT THE POETS CITE OF LOVE

 

HOLD YOU CLOSER THAN I SHOULD

LIKE THOSE DESIRES YOU LEFT FOR GOOD LIKE LOVE

SEWED OUR SORROWS AND FAMED OUR NAMES

LIKE RAINDROPS FROZEN ON WINDOW PANES LIKE LOVE

 

AWAY FROM IT ALL INTO THE NIGHT

ASTRAY AND DEVOURED INSIDE OUR SILENT PLIGHT IN ENDLESS LIGHT

THE CARCASS OF A CAR CRASH AND A SKATER WITHOUT ICE

APPALED INSIDE DISASTER AND REDEAMED AS AUTHORIZED

A LETTER FROM A SILENT SCREAM TO ANSWER FOR OUR DISESTEEM

A GAP WITHIN A GAP AND A LONGING THAT WE LACK

ALL WE ARE I AM NOT

LIFE IS STRANGE

 

LIFE IS STRANGE AND ALL THAT REMAINS

A NOISE ON THE RADIO AND WHISPERS THAT FADE

A SONG ERASED DESIRES TO FEED DISGRACE

A FADED PHOTOGRAPH THE GHOST OF YOUR LAUGHTER

 

LIFE S TOO STRANGE A HOPE YOU CAN T REARRANGE

THE PATHS THAT WE PAVED FORMING CIRCLES ON THE WHEEL OF FATE

AND ALL WE ACCOMPLISHED THE LARVAE OF RUST

THOSE LILLIES OF SPRINGTIMES ALL HALFLIVES OF TRUST

THOSE BALLROOMS OF KISSES THE GERMCELLS OF COUGHS

WILL SLUMP INTO CHANGE INTO PAST AS WE MUST

 

LIFE IS STRANGE WHEN NOTHING REMAINS

THE ANSWERS WE LEAVE BEHIND QUESTIONS WE COULDN T FIND

TAPES THAT WE CAN T REWIND

TOO DIRE TO CHANGE A PAWN IN THE GAME

A HANDFUL OF CUSTOMS TOO ABSURD TO FATHOM

A DREAM IN A DREAM DERANGED

AND ALL THAT YOU CAME FOR MEANS NOTHING AT ALL

A LIFE IN ABEYANCE LIKE SNOWFLAKES IN FALL

AND ALL YOUR DECISIONS WILL MOAN AT THE COST

WHEN ALL YOU DESIRED IN TATTERS AND LOST

AND ALL YOU STRIVED IS ALL THAT YOU SEEK

THE BREATH THAT YOU WASTED BEREFT AND DECEIVED

THE PATTERNS YOU KEEP DEMANDS THAT YOU MEET

THE PAGES STILL BLEAK

 

ALL YOU TELL ME AND ALL YOU SELL ME

ALL WISHING WELLS AND ALL EMPTY SEASHELLS

AND EVERYBODY JUST ANYBODY

A HOIST OF TODDLERS MORE CLAY THAN STARDUST

THE MESS WE RE CAUGHT IN THE PEACE OF THRALLDOM

THE MESH OF BOREDOM THE GREASE OF STARDOM

THE F***S YOU WANTED FROM LIVES YOU THWARTED

THE DREAMS WARRANTED FROM DAYS ENCHANTED

THE QUEEN YOU DAWNED ON THE DRAMA CORPSE

THE FACE YOU CARVED ON THE STAGE YOU CRAWLED ON

IS CLOSED

 

THE SOUND OF THE UNIVERSE YOU SOAKED

THE FEAR IN YOUR LAUGHTER UNFOLDS

AND I REMEMBER THAT NIGHT

YOU WERE TOO BOTHERED TO NOTICED ME

WHILE I FOLLOWED THOSE EYES STEALING GLANCES LIKE A TREE SHEDDING LEAVES

SO OLD ALL OF A SUDDEN SO OUT THIS WORLD

AND I RECORDED YOUR SMILES

ENCAGED THEM IN THE CELLARS OF MY MIND

WRAPPED IN PAIN AND WRAPPED IN GREED

WHILE ALL I DID WAS WATCH YOU LEAVE

 

NOW IT S NOT HARD TO STAND TALL

WITH MY BACK AGAINST THE WALL

INSOMNIA

 

A DREAM OF UTTER DARKNESS EXCEPT I NEVER DREAM

A CTC OF HALFTHOUGHTS OH PLEASE REMEMBER ME

CAUSE ME I CAN T REMEMBER WHOEVER YOU MUST BE

YOUR FACE A BLUR OF DAYTIME

YOUR VOICE AN EMPTY SHEET

 

OPEN-EYES IN WHITE SHEET TORTURE TRAILED OFF INTO NIGHT

A SINGLE-USE ANGEL S LITURGIES HAPLESS IN REDUNDANCIES

BURIED UNDER COLD SWEAT SILENCE HAUNTED BY A SULLEN FACE

I M NOT YOUR BIOLOGY I M NOT YOU

 

YES I ALWAYS WANTED YOU ALTHOUGH I NEVER UNDERSTOOD

ANOTHER DREAM OF YOU BUT WOULD I HELP IT IF I COULD

IN A BLUR OF WHITEWASHED SENSES

UNDERNEATH A BORED OUT SKY

IN THE STARLIGHT S CRACKLING SELF-SCHEMES

IN THE COLD SWEAT OF DECLINE

I M WALKING HOME TO YOU

 

THE MOON OR THE SUN JUST SHADES IN MY DARK

YOUR DREAMS ON MY BEDSIDE TABLE

YOUR THORNS IN MY SIDE

AND I WATCH YOU DREAM MY DREAMS AND SLEEP

 

THOSE SCORCHMARKS IN MY LIFELINE

EMBRACED BY STARLIGHT S FLICKER

WHISPERED ON THE EDGE OF HEARING

YOUR DISGUST DEFINES ME

STRONGER THAN ALL SLEEPING PILLS

A GOATSKIN COINED IN FATHERS MILK

CHARTING DOWN PHILOSOPHIES IN SPITEFUL FAMILIARITY

 

A DREAM OF UTTER DARKNESS

SWEEPED AWAY IN PERFUMED DREAMS OF SILENCE AND SINCERITY

A SPACE TIME I CAN T ABSTRACT FROM

THE PHYSICS OF THE TEARS TO COME

I M FALLING

 

IN OUR MUTUAL REPUDIATION

IN THE SILENCE OF THE TOLL

IN THE COBWEBS OF REPLICATION

IN THE SIMPLE TRUTHS WE WALK

THIS IS ALL THAT I CAN TELL YOU

THIS IS ALL THAT I CAN SAY

IN THE SILENCE OF DISASTER

I AM NOT THE SAME AGAIN

I LL HAVE TO KILL YOU

TO LET ME SLEEP

ALWAYS FOREVER

 

AND SO I LEAVE YOU

IN THE CORNER OF MY EYE

WITH A DREAM OF NOTHING SPECIAL

WITH THE COLOURS YOU DENIED

IN THE BURROWS OF OUR FAILURES

THAT YOU RUMMAGE EVERY NIGHT

WHILE I WEEP LIKE ANY ANGEL

THROUGH THE SICKNESS OF OUR LIFE

 

AND EVERYBODY SAYS WE RE OLDER NOW

BUT I RECALL YOU ALWAYS WERE

AND ALL OUR THIS AND THAT FOR TO DETRACT

FROM WHAT IS FACT

THAT I DESERVE WHAT YOU DESERVE

 

AND SO I GRIEVE NOW

IN THE CORNER OF MY I

THAT I DESIGNED AS NOTHING SPECIAL

FROM THE ASHES OF DENIAL

AND IN DREAMS OF UTTER DARKNESS

STRANGE AS LIFE IN SUMMERTIME

YOU CAN YEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT ME

UNLIKE I

 

I LL BE THE UNCONSOLED

THE SOUL BEYOND THE PINES

I M THE WIND TO THUMB THROUGH SNAPSHOTS

OF OLD TIMES

 

ANOTHER CHANGE OF HEART

AND ANOTHER BLANK TO FILL

ON THE DAY I LEFT FOREVER

LIKE I GUESS I ALWAYS WILL

LIKE THE SLEEP YOU SAID YOU LACKED

THOUGH YOU NEVER WERE AWAKE

FOR ANOTHER VERY LAST GOODBYE

TO REPEAT THIS DREAM OF ME

NOT QUITE

 

AND YES I KNOW WE VE BEEN HERE BEFORE

LIKE LIVING GHOSTS WE COME PAST OUR OWN DOORS

I AM DRIVING HOME FROM YOUR AMENDMENTS

A CIRCLE IN A CIRCLE IN THE FRACTALS OF DESIRES

AND AN URGE TO LIVE A LIFE TO GET AWAY WITH SUICIDE

HOLD MY FEARS INSIDE YOUR STARK DERANGEMENT

 

DREAM AT YOU IN SILENT AGITATION

RAVING IN MY PAIN TO DROWN IN SOLID RAIN

SCREAM AT ME TO GUARD YOUR CHOKED AMAZEMENT

SHATTERED AND RESTRAINED RESIGNED IN SWIFT EMBRACE

 

SO AGAIN I M GONNA LEAVE YOU

FOREVER LIKE LAST TIME

WE D AGREED NOT TO BESEECH US

WITH OLD MEMORIES NEW DESIRES

I WILL SMILE LIKE ANY ANGEL

I CAN BE WHAT I AM NOT

THE INSOMNIA THAT WE RE CAUGHT IN

MADE US LEAVE STRANGE DREAMS BEHIND

 

YES AGAIN I M GONNA LEAVE YOU

YES AGAIN I THINK I WILL

YES AGAIN I M GONNA LEAVE YOU

YES AGAIN

YET AGAIN

THIS DREAM OF ME

GO DOWN A RABBITHOLE AND THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS

AND FIND ME SIT IN CONTEMPLATION

OF WHO I COULD HAVE USED TO BE AND WHO I USED TO WANT TO BE

AND WHO I WANT TO USE TO BE

A SINGLE DREAM TO LINE ME OUT

A SIMPLE LINE TO DREAM ALOUD

AND WHILE I M SITTING THERE IN CONTEMPLATING SILENCE

THE SILENCE SITTING THERE IN ME

 

SO LOST IN EVERYTHINGS THAT I FORGET WHERE I BEGIN

A PILGRIM ON HIS PATH LOST IN A METAPHOR OF MOVEMENT

OH LET ME OUT OF HERE

 

MY TIME RELIES ON ALL THIS TIME THAT I RELY ON

SELFHANDICAPPING HANDICAPS

A VOICE INSIDE ME CALLING EVERYONE TO ACTION

MY INNER DEMAGOGUE MY INNER THRALLDOM

A SINGLE LINE TO SELFALIGN ME

A SIMPLE DREAM TO UNDERMINE ME

AND WHILE I M SITTING THERE IN SILENT AGITATION

THE SILENCE AGITATING ME

 

SO LOST IN EVERYTHINGS THAT I FORGET WHERE I BEGIN

A PILGRIM ON HIS PATH LOST IN A METAPHOR OF MOVEMENT

I M EVERYTHING I LOST THUS I M JUST ANYONE TO ME

I NEED A LYRIC TO RETRIEVE ME SO LET US WRITE THIS SONG ABOUT ME

DREAM A DREAM OF ME

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